extravagant love come down

So let me get this straight
Say now you loved me all along
What made you hesitate
To tell me with words what you really feel?

I can see it in your eyes
You mean all of what you say
I remember so along ago
See, I felt that same way
Now we both have separate lives and lovers
(And lovers)
Insignificantly enough
We both have significant others

Only time will tell
Time will turn and tell

We are who we were when
Could have been lovers
But at least you’re still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
Who knew what we know now?
Could have been more
But at least you’re still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when

But thoughts they change
And times they rearrange
I don’t know who you are anymore
Love’s come and go
And this I know
I’m not who you recall anymore
But I must confess
You’re so much more than I remember
Can’t help but entertain these thoughts
Thoughts of us together

We are who we were when
Could have been lovers
But at least you’re still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
Who knew what we know now?
Could have been more
But at least you’re still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when

So let me get this straight
All these years and you were nowhere to be found
And now you want me for your own
But you’re a day late
And my love, she’s still renowned

We are who we were when
Could have been lovers
But at least you’re still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
Who knew what we know now?
Could have been more
But at least you’re still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when

Hey peeps!!
I’ve moved to a new address. Heh. (I know, I know, I keep changing.)
Wanted a tagboard so that people can leave messages la. But WordPress, as fantastic as it is, allows for no tagboard =(

So here’s the addy:

http://chosenoutoftheworld.blogspot.com/

But I will still keep this blog open as a song database ‘cos many people visit this place for lyrics la. Heh. 9000+ visitors since last October. I guess it says something eh?

Here I am Lord, and I’m drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don’t want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You’ve cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I’ve never sinned
But today I feel like I’m just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
’cause I can’t bear to see the man I’ve been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
’cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I’m in
Today I feel like I’m just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You’ve washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can’t live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I’m not holding on to You, but You’re holding on to me
You’re holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don’t have to see the man I’ve been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
’cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other

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i’m now wading in a sea of confusion. Lord, where did i go wrong? Lord, did I hear You wrong? Lord, what does it take for me to get to where You want me to go? Lord, why is it so complicated? How come it can’t be simplified?

On another note,
God, I thank You for Your mercy. For Your grace, again and again, over and over.

Everlasting Embrace

Traded part of myself
For a momentary high
Made a huge mistake
That I can never undo
Thought that when I chose
To share that part of myself
I’d experience something more
I was wrong

Fell into a deep abyss
Of misery and emptiness
A black hole of nothingness
I was screaming for help
A confusion of all sorts
Guilt, loss, disappointment
Anger, distrust, sorrow, disgust.

Sorry couldn’t make it ok
but my sorries He heard
Sorry opened up His arms
And showed me to where He was
To the place of crucifixion
As His hands were nailed one by one
Bones crushed
There He said
“As far as the east is from the west
That is how far my love has travelled
To remove you from your sins.”

And this is the day I come running
Back into my Father’s arms
Not a temporal moment
but an everlasting embrace
This is how I am forgiven
This is how my sins have been washed away
This is my Father’s love.

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
‘Til it was a battle cry
I’ll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never
Been this way before
All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You’ll come back
When it’s over
No need to say goodbye
You’ll come back
When it’s over
No need to say goodbye

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
‘Til they’re before your eyes
You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye
You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

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It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
‘Til it was a battle cry

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
‘Til they’re before your eyes

How apt. Haha.

From a feeling to a hope to a quiet thought to a quiet word. That is quietly hidden in the heart. That no one knows. That no one will ever ever know. Until one day.

I sought for approval
In the eyes of man
And I failed terribly
People look at me
With standards of this world
Standards I can never attain
Stick-thin beauty
Artificial layers
Porcelain skin
I never ever was

I sought for approval
In the eyes of those whom I care about
Time I took
Effort I put in
Heart I gave
Overlooked
Neglected
Pushed aside
Underappreciated
Called weak
Always standing in the shadows of somebody else
I’m never quite enough it seems
Will they ever hear my cry
Or have I not tried hard enough

In the quiet You came and whispered
“I know your heart inside out, my dear child
I know when you sing about Me,
your heart sings with all of its strength, all of its might, all of its soul.
I know you have a pure heart that’s for Me, My child.
Do not listen to the voices of others,
Turn your ear to Me.
You are beautiful
Your thick black hair
Your big brown eyes
Your melodious voice
This creation I’ve made with My own hands
I love you with all My heart
I hold you with both My hands
I’m molding you into who I’ve designed you to be.
Ice shards falling away
This frozen rose with no thorns
Blooming into full color
This is what I’ve had in mind all along.
A heart that is full of love, full of beauty
That is abundant to give freely, bloom freely
A rose,
No other flower that is quite as beautiful as you are.”

© ayxt 7.6.2008

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Haha I’m exhausted from all the crying. From this new level broken-ness that God has brought me to. Things that I didn’t know were hurting me. Now I do. And I am fighting it with His strength and His love. Nothing can hold me down anymore.