Filed under: His strength, His word, songs about God | Tags: 2 Corinthians 4:7-12, Galatians 2:20, RELIENT K, WHO I AM HATES WHO I'VE BEEN
WHO I AM HATES WHO I’VE BEEN
(by Relient K)
VERSE 1
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific
And you might think I’m losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
‘Cause I don’t want you to know where I am
‘Cause then you’ll see my heart
In the saddest state it’s ever been
This is no place to try and live my life
PRE-CHORUS
Stop right there!
That’s exactly where I lost it
See that line?
Well, I never should’ve crossed it
Stop right there!
Well, I never should’ve said that
It’s the very moment that I wish that I could take back
CHORUS
I’m sorry for the person I became
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change
I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again
‘Cause who I am hates who I’ve been
Who I am hates who I’ve been
VERSE 2
I talked to absolutely no one
Couldn’t keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside
Had finally begun to create so much pressure
That I’d soon blow up
And I heard the reverberating footsteps
Syncing up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless
I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart
And I can’t let that happen again
‘Cause then you’ll see my heart
In the saddest day it’s ever been
This is no place to try and live my life
PRE-CHORUS
Stop right there
That’s exactly where I lost it
See that line?
I never should’ve crossed it
Stop right there
I never should’ve said that
It’s the very moment that I wish that I could take back
(REPEAT)
CHORUS
BRIDGE
Who I am hates who I’ve been
And who I am will take the second chance You gave me
Who I am hates who I’ve been
‘Cause who I’ve been only ever made me
CHORUS
It’s a painful process. To realize how so not unrighteous I am. To be humbled over and over again by God. As I sat in Social Psy (advanced) class that day and listened to one of Prof Eddie Tong’s anecdotes/quick bites, I realized how lowly I am.
He asked this, “if there was no God, no moral punishment for crimes like murdering/raping/whatever, how many of you would commit these crimes? You’d be surprised that at least 60% of you would.”
I wasn’t surprised. God brought to mind at that very moment a line from some Christian book, “Given the right situation, any person would sin.” My heart fell to my stomach. You would have to know me better, to know that I am such a self-righteous brat that I think that everything I do is right and inwardly I am a very judgmental person even though I seem so uncritical outwardly, that this realization was such a blow to me.
me: “I would do that kind of thing?”
God: “Yes. You are not that righteous after all. BUT. I sent my One and Only Son to die for your sins. So that you are now blameless.”
But it does not mean that we can go around sinning. Jesus came and died for our transgressions so that we can now live a righteous life. Which is why who I am hates who I’ve been. For the things that I’ve done in the past. I’m sorry to all the people whom I’ve done wrong to. Even in the past year. I am not perfect. But I am changing. I am trying to be the best I can be. I know I can’t by myself but by God’s grace, He’s changing me, refining me, moulding me to be the clay that He wants me to be.
I’m sorry for the person I became
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change
I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again
‘Cause who I am hates who I’ve been
Who I am hates who I’ve been
The art of losing myself in bringing You praise
It’s this issue of losing more of myself, while letting more of God in my life that God wants to tell me every day.
Paul says in 2 Cor 4:7-12,
“But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. we are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned, struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.“
and in Gal 2:20,
“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.“
Filed under: His unfailing love, songs about God | Tags: Corrinne May, On the Side of Me
Hey people!! Haha… Haven’t posted for a week already so here I am. lol.
ON THE SIDE OF ME
VERSE 1
I’m not the easiest person to love
I’m often the one who lets things go unresolved
PRE-CHORUS
Yet You choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Yet You choose to be on the side of me
On the side of me
VERSE 2
I’m not too proud of some things
I’ve done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide
PRE-CHORUS 1
Yet You choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Blessed Charity
You’re on the side of me
On the side of me
CHORUS
‘Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
When it’s cold outside
And there’s no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
But You
VERSE 3
I’m not the easiest person to love
But You, You’ve opened Your heart to show me what I’m worth
PRE-CHORUS 2
‘Cause You choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
What a mystery
You’re on the side of me
On the side of me
REPEAT CHORUS
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But You…
Yeah You choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
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I’m not sure if Corrinne May wrote this song in a secular context, but I’m treating it as a Christian song.
Reina, Jang, Jo and I sang this song to Sharon during our cell group retreat as an appreciation for her and also part of her belated Christmas present. Haha. It was quite a last minute presentation that we pulled off but it was quite fun la. Haha.
Here are some videos of us “rehearsing” for our wonderful presentation… LOL.
Jang & Reina talking away while Jo started singing “That Thing You Do”.
We did sing “That Thing You Do” after all. Haha.
Jo and her squeaky Alvin voice and Jang singing M2M’s “Mirror Mirror”. hahahahahaha.
(*ps: they are so going to kill me if they found out i posted this on my blog.)
this has only recording, no video. we sang “Making a Difference” & “His Love is Warmer” & other old songs from my songbook for fun. haha.
only recording, no video too. haha. this is the song that we presented to Sharon – “On the Side of Me”
There’s actually one more video but Jo will kill me for sure if I put it here. It’s her rendition of “More than Words” in her Alvin voice. SUPER FUNNY. but I can’t put it here la. incriminating material against her singing career in the future. LOL.
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Coming back to the point, “On the Side of Me” is a song that any believer can relate to.
I’m not the easiest person to love but God still loves me for who I am no matter what I’ve done.
This is how I feel right now, at this point of time, just as I struggle with a particular issue at hand.
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide
But He knows them all. And He has already forgiven me.
Doshite? Doshite? I may not understand it now but it is just how God is.
(This video does great injustice to the actual song. Go get the original song!)
Filed under: His faithfulness, His promise, His protection, His strength, songs about God | Tags: Psalm 3, There Is None Like You
This is my prayer.
There Is None Like You
There is none like You
No one else can touch my heart like You do
I could search for all eternity long
And find there is none like You
Your mercy flows like a river wide
And healing comes from Your hands
Suffering children are safe in Your arms
There is none like You
Psalm 3
3 But You are a shield around me, O Lord;
You bestow glory on me and lift up my head.
4 To the Lord I cry aloud,
and He answers me from His holy hill.
The Lord’s protection is over his children. He never leaves us for a moment. He never slumbers but His eyes are on us each and every second.
5 I lie down and sleep;
I wake again, because the Lord sustains me.
6 I will not fear the tens of thousands
drawn up against me on every side.
David trusts the Lord with all of his being, knowing that God is the one who sustains him and gives him strength and protects him from all harm, which is why he does not fear his enemies amidst such chaos.
Filed under: His faithfulness, His promise, His word, songs about God | Tags: As the Deer, Psalm 2
Was doing qt just now in the afternoon after I woke up. Today was especially distracting. My mom and bro were outside in the living room playing around and made a lot of noises despite me walking out of the room so many times to ask them quieten down. Was very disturbed. But thank God, in the end they did quieten down. Was crying out to God for His presence with “As the Deer”. Was just led to sing this song over and over, wanted to tell Him this was what was I longing for. His presence next to me. And He did come =)
As the Deer
VERSE 1
As the deer pants for the water
So my soul longs after You
You alone are my heart’s desire
And I long to worship You
CHORUS
You alone are my strength, my shield
To You alone may my spirit yield
You alone are my heart’s desire
And I long to worship You
VERSE 2
I want You more than gold and silver
Only You can satisfy
You alone are the real joy giver
And the apple of my eye
CHORUS
You alone are my strength, my shield
To You alone may my spirit yield
You alone are my heart’s desire
And I long to worship You
VERSE 3
You’re my friend and You are my brother
Even though You are a King
I love You more than any other
So much more than anything
CHORUS
You alone are my strength, my shield
To You alone may my spirit yield
You alone are my heart’s desire
And I long to worship You
God, You know this is what I want. I long for You more than anything else. This song is a declaration of my desire to know You more. Come saturate my being with Your Holy Spirit whenever I call to You.
Psalm 139: 23-24
“Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”
Lord, take me, break me, mould me in Your image. Humble me and teach me Your ways. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.
Today’s Psalm 2!! LOL. (God, I pray I would be able to persist on for the next 148 days, with Your strength.)
One thing that really struck out in Psalm 2 was verse 12.
12 “Blessed are those who seek in refuge in Him.”
When I saw this line, and meditated upon this word, I saw a picture of God, in his white robe, and His arms outstretched, with many of His people standing within His encircled arms, all looking safe and warm and joyous, and He looked very pleased with them. LOL. Those who choose to obey Him come under His protection and to be protected by God is something that is to be rejoiced over!
